awakening the multidimensional self
the sacred way
Creativity meant building once upon a time. Vision, plan, create, build all effort, mine. Not that I didn’t have help I did - but from the divine, I hid. Through controlling and pushing and making plans happen, I never gave Spirit a chance too busy pushing the wagon. Most Western women do this emulate the masculine way the prescribed path to success: on it you will stay. By working and trying and proving and striving climbing the ladder my own soul was writhing. Twisting inside of me, trying to get my attention through anxiety and unease, almost chronic depression. I numbed it for years because my work was my value. How you saw me was everything yet I didn’t even know you. Life has a way of orienting you. Listen and soften. To follow its lead, you must release caution. I learned this first in my head through years of spiritual teachings. Journey from the head to the heart, slow. In my choices, it was not reaching. Until all of my choices led to dead ends, revealing my confusion divine offering amends. The gifts of rest and safety and love while I peeled away the layers of my psyche like a glove. Stuck to me like glue were layers and layers of gloves covering my soul like spiritual betrayers. Convincing me of their truth - when they were the lie. They were the obstacle, the main reason why. I was pushing and striving, twisting myself in knots, trying to achieve some vision - influential woman boss. The vision dissolved like a fog in the sun. I’m naked and vulnerable, completely undone. The excruciating process of all my layers peeling brings me to my knees - now everything I am feeling. Feelings release once felt, no longer weighing me down. The layers were heavy under them, I did drown. Now I see clearly - these layers were a cage, Hiding me from the divine and my own inner sage. They are still with me these layers. They are scars on my soul. My self-tenderness, a salve. That does indeed console. I will always have scars. That’s what it means to be human. To know I am divine - true human evolution. Now I am like a rose, blossoming over time - not pushing or forcing, simply existing, sublime. Allowing life to unfold like a red carpet before me - leading me down the path that is truly meant to be.
Hello There!
I share this poem today because the layers of my personality that would be pushing and measuring and striving and planning and projecting and business planning have fallen away. There are echoes of them rattling around; but mostly they are gone.
What remains are simply teachings that come through me and a desire to share them.
An old version of me (you may have met her), would have had an idea, written about it immediately, created a course about it (immediately), hired a web designer to create a sales page and a marketing person to market it and put it out in the world before I even integrated it into my body and my life.
I would teach concepts I was learning in real time. Sometimes even, teaching them before I learned them myself, for real.
I no longer do this.
What I teach now, I embody. What I share, I live.
Over the summer, I decided I wanted to create an Insight Timer course about The Sacred Six. When I looked back on what I had written about it in 2015 and again in 2021, I realized that I could not share any of what I had written.
I was no longer that woman.
I sat with that awareness for a couple of months and decided to go deeper. What wanted to come through me about this way of living? What am I truly embodying now?
For ten days in October, after meditation, I spoke into a voice recorder what I can only call “transmissions”. They came easily and swiftly and completely coherently. They surprised me. They delighted me. They humbled me.
I transcribed them and then sat with them.
I planned to record them before the end of 2025 and then life took me elsewhere.
I let life lead.
I recorded them in January and completed the edits and descriptions and uploaded to Insight Timer. I looked at that “Submit” button and closed my computer.
I waited.
I listened to them from a listener’s perspective (rather than a producer’s perspective).
I waited some more.
Do I live this material?
Is this “Sacred Way” that I am teaching here the way I walk through my own life?
Am I teaching from embodied wisdom?
Am I resonating with this material honestly?
Am I ready to share this without any expectation of how it will be received?
When the answer was a full body yes to all these questions: I pressed submit.
This is the most embodied work I have released.
And now, softly and with great humility, I share it with you.
It lives on Insight Timer and is free for Premium Members.
Below you will find the audio introduction to the course and a link to explore it.
If it resonates, I invite you to listen and walk this path with me.
And I thank you for being here. I’m so grateful for you.
-Alyssa
